I had been praying for months for God to 'Make a way for the promises to be made manifest in my life. His promises to come to pass.' I had been asking for boldness and clarity to be able to see the door and walk through it when it was time. So yeah that OPPORTUNITY came this past weekend~December, 4, 2010~.
Wouldn't it be dope if I said POW I walked through that door and represented well?! That would be cool! To bad it didn't happen like that!
But what actually happened?
Could the very thing that I prayed for be to much for me to handle?
Was it REALLY a promise from God or was my stomach hurting from eating to much sweets the night before?
Am I really gonna chicken out NOW? Shavra...talking trash-trusting God Shavra!?!
I walked through the door and sat there for a minute and the fear that came upon me was ridiculous! I was scared! Not really scared of the fact that I walked through the door but I'm sitting on the other side of a comfortable prayer and it feels weird. I was standing in my destiny. So what did I do? Did I remain scared? Yep...well at least for a while anyway! :) For the remainder of the day I was searching of places or people to go to for the answer I desperately wanted: dvd rentals, music, writing, texting, tweeting, etc! They all failed. It wasn't all I'm scared! I'm scared! There was a consistent yet power voice in me, no doubt the Holy Spirit, saying 'I'm with You. I won't leave you. I will speak the Words the people need to hear.' Needless to say I struggled the rest of the night Saturday!
Sunday morning I was getting ready for worship and I just wasn't myself. I struggled to find what to wear...*HOLD UP* that's every Sunday! lol. Anyway I really wanted to go to church but my emotions were all over the place. Of course I pressed my way to church! I knew that's where I needed to be. During praise and worship I couldn't get with it. I just stood there and began to speak to God right where I was. *God is good* He began to take all of the fear way from me! Of course the tears were flowing! I had to kneel before Him because He's just awesome. He said, 'I won't leave you daughter. I'm big enough for your dreams and bigger than your fears. You say I am amazing and truly I am. You will see how amazing I am as you go on.' WOW! I thank you Lord for showing me YOU. I knew I needed you but how quickly fear vanished just by your Word.
I'm simply amazed! He's such a gracious and loving Father. He's just amazing! He's just amazing! So what now?! I'm determined to stay in my purpose and not run when I reach my destiny. #Standing Strong and moving forward!
Until next time...
Shavra
Monday, December 6, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
The Spirit of Suicide
DEUT 30:15 SEE I HAVE SET BEFORE YOU TODAY LIFE AND GOOD DEATH AND EVIL. I CALL HEAVEN & EARTH AS A WITNESS TODAY AGAINST YOU, THAT I HAVE SET BEFORE YOU LIFE AND DEATH, BLESSING AND CURSES; THEREFORE CHOOSE LIFEand soak in , THAT BOTH YOU AND YOUR DESCENDANTS MAY LIVE.
~UNDERSTANDING HOW IT STARTS~
Hopefully in this blog we'll take a journey and set the captive free today!! Praise God! Let's start with a basic concept of sin. In Romans we know that the wages of sin is death, correct? But often times sin doesn't jump straight from sin to death like that. There are some steps that take place before death. Sin becomes death when sin is untreated and we allow it to grow. For example: there may be a young girl around 5 or 6, she likes to dance, you know them secular joints 'the jerk' ect... and everybody and the momma too thinks it's cute. When she's about 12 or 13 and she's pregnant, people wanna pass out, cry, and holla. When they actually facilitated foolishness when the girl was younger. We can't 'patty cake' or flirt wit sin. We have to cut it off!! Well that may be in a child but what about adults who are scared but yet they cater to sin??? For example: Folks will sit around and listen to Alicia Keys, Jill Scott, Erykah Badu who are known 5%(who don't even believe in Jesus) and soak in their teachings because it makes us feel good or because it's positive. All along the way the enemy is ushering in a spirit of condemnation. How? John 3:18b but he who does not believe is condemned already. They, the artists, can't lead us (you and me) into a place of holiness when they're in a state of condemnation. Then we wonder why we feel confused, ashamed, unable to focus on the Word without doubt.
~SO WHAT ARE YOU GETTIN AT?~
So how does sin jump to suicide and death? The devil knows he can't just show up in a red suit with horns surrounded by flames and tell you to kill yourself. So he sets up plans and schemes to desensitize
you to the plans that God has for you. It may start off with telling a couple lies to cover up something you're afraid to reveal. Maybe you have a some lust in your heart... it didn't manifest to sleeping with anyone but it's there. Perhaps each relationship is getting worse and worse. Often times we say "no it's not that serious" and leave the sin untreated, thinking we can handle it ( THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT THE DEVIL WANTS YOU TO DO). PSA: "We cannot entertain sin! It's gonna cost something!
~ STILL ON THE JOURNEY~
When the imaginations, doubts, and fantasies are thrown at us we have to them stop there. How? 2 Cor. 10:3-5. When thoughts come, and they will, saying 'look at you...you're nothing' 'you have no value and no purpose', 'you can't do anything right', 'you can watch a lil porn it's cool', 'you can shack up with him/her go ahead, do it', 'you're ugly and God will never use you' Etc.... you immediately at that time, come back with the Word. Even if you can't fully quote it, YOU KNOW IT!!!! Say it out of your mouth, 'I am not weak' 'the joy of the Lord is my strength' 'I have abundant life' 'I shall live and not die!!!' 'I am more than a conqueror' 'I am royalty and God loves me' 'Even when I'm weak You are strong God' 'I am the head and never the tail' 'all things work for my good' 'God i Know you'll never leave me or forsake me' 'I am healed by your stripes' 'I have no fear but a sound mind'...etc. STOP SIN IN ITS TRACKS!!!!
If you don't sin gives birth to sin which feeds more sin which will eventually produce death. Maybe not in you but in your children or grandchildren. When we play with sin we give it permission for sin to have space in our lives.
~Wrapping It Up!!!~
Often times suicide comes from unaddressed sin and condemnation. Remember the pages Deut 30:15 in the beginning? It's Gods desire that you choose life!!!! But you have to make that choice to live. Will you?
I hope this has helped someone today and may have brought some encouragement or clarity to someone else. Here's a short prayer for anyone who may be dealing with sin and it's nature: God I thank you for the LIFE of whoever is reading this. I pray that joy may cosume them and that life may be theirs TODAY!!!! Give them the strength to choose life and freedom and never look back. We shed light on the enemy and say 'NO MORE' to your plots, plans, and schemes in our life. We shall live and not die!!! In Jesus Name Amen!!!!
Love you,
Shavra
Shepherdess
~UNDERSTANDING HOW IT STARTS~
Hopefully in this blog we'll take a journey and set the captive free today!! Praise God! Let's start with a basic concept of sin. In Romans we know that the wages of sin is death, correct? But often times sin doesn't jump straight from sin to death like that. There are some steps that take place before death. Sin becomes death when sin is untreated and we allow it to grow. For example: there may be a young girl around 5 or 6, she likes to dance, you know them secular joints 'the jerk' ect... and everybody and the momma too thinks it's cute. When she's about 12 or 13 and she's pregnant, people wanna pass out, cry, and holla. When they actually facilitated foolishness when the girl was younger. We can't 'patty cake' or flirt wit sin. We have to cut it off!! Well that may be in a child but what about adults who are scared but yet they cater to sin??? For example: Folks will sit around and listen to Alicia Keys, Jill Scott, Erykah Badu who are known 5%(who don't even believe in Jesus) and soak in their teachings because it makes us feel good or because it's positive. All along the way the enemy is ushering in a spirit of condemnation. How? John 3:18b but he who does not believe is condemned already. They, the artists, can't lead us (you and me) into a place of holiness when they're in a state of condemnation. Then we wonder why we feel confused, ashamed, unable to focus on the Word without doubt.
~SO WHAT ARE YOU GETTIN AT?~
So how does sin jump to suicide and death? The devil knows he can't just show up in a red suit with horns surrounded by flames and tell you to kill yourself. So he sets up plans and schemes to desensitize
you to the plans that God has for you. It may start off with telling a couple lies to cover up something you're afraid to reveal. Maybe you have a some lust in your heart... it didn't manifest to sleeping with anyone but it's there. Perhaps each relationship is getting worse and worse. Often times we say "no it's not that serious" and leave the sin untreated, thinking we can handle it ( THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT THE DEVIL WANTS YOU TO DO). PSA: "We cannot entertain sin! It's gonna cost something!
~ STILL ON THE JOURNEY~
When the imaginations, doubts, and fantasies are thrown at us we have to them stop there. How? 2 Cor. 10:3-5. When thoughts come, and they will, saying 'look at you...you're nothing' 'you have no value and no purpose', 'you can't do anything right', 'you can watch a lil porn it's cool', 'you can shack up with him/her go ahead, do it', 'you're ugly and God will never use you' Etc.... you immediately at that time, come back with the Word. Even if you can't fully quote it, YOU KNOW IT!!!! Say it out of your mouth, 'I am not weak' 'the joy of the Lord is my strength' 'I have abundant life' 'I shall live and not die!!!' 'I am more than a conqueror' 'I am royalty and God loves me' 'Even when I'm weak You are strong God' 'I am the head and never the tail' 'all things work for my good' 'God i Know you'll never leave me or forsake me' 'I am healed by your stripes' 'I have no fear but a sound mind'...etc. STOP SIN IN ITS TRACKS!!!!
If you don't sin gives birth to sin which feeds more sin which will eventually produce death. Maybe not in you but in your children or grandchildren. When we play with sin we give it permission for sin to have space in our lives.
~Wrapping It Up!!!~
Often times suicide comes from unaddressed sin and condemnation. Remember the pages Deut 30:15 in the beginning? It's Gods desire that you choose life!!!! But you have to make that choice to live. Will you?
I hope this has helped someone today and may have brought some encouragement or clarity to someone else. Here's a short prayer for anyone who may be dealing with sin and it's nature: God I thank you for the LIFE of whoever is reading this. I pray that joy may cosume them and that life may be theirs TODAY!!!! Give them the strength to choose life and freedom and never look back. We shed light on the enemy and say 'NO MORE' to your plots, plans, and schemes in our life. We shall live and not die!!! In Jesus Name Amen!!!!
Love you,
Shavra
Shepherdess
-Purpose Over Problems-
~Purpose over Problems~
The strength and durability of your purpose outweighs the temporal frailty of your problems.-Shavra
IT’S A LIE!!! IT’S A LIE!!!!! I know it may be a difficult way to begin a blog but hey it’s the truth! What’s the lie?! That whatever you feel your shortcomings are that some how they have caused you to be short of God’s ability to use you! I'm going to list a few leaders with a ‘few’ problems:
CASE #1: Deborah: Perhaps one of her biggest problems would be the people of her day. Her gender wasn’t a factor for her but it was a problem for others. From the spirit filled Bible(NKJV): A female judge whose multiple leadership functions demonstrates the possibilities for any woman who will allow Gods spirit to fill and form her life.
CASE #2:The 3 Hebrew Boys: A HOT MESS!!! LITERALLY ! We all know they were thrown into the furnace….seems like a BIG problem right!? But why? Because they refused to allow the music to influence their worship and allegiance to the Real King(don’t worry I’m not gonna go deeeeep into the secular music conversation this time! Lol…breathe). Know this that their purpose was to have faith and that faith outweighed their problems!
CASE #3:The Woman with the Issue of Blood: THE ISSUE OF BLOOD WAS NOT THE ONLY ISSUE SHE HAD! Y’all know that right?! All of her life savings (if she had much…being that she was probably unmarried and jobless due to her medical state) were going towards her health care. The ‘whisperings’ concerning why she always sick probably were rumbling around the social networks of her day! I’m not saying she didn’t have ANY friends…I’m just saying how many of your friends stayed around for more than a couple of years while you worked out some things? Exxxactly! So 12 years of ‘can you give me a ride to the doctor and I don't have gas money???!’ But among her many problems was purpose and persistence. She pressed through the (crowd)pop culture that wanted to see Jesus! The man whom everybody was talking about. Perhaps she knew the value of clothes, the energy of crawling for her last hope, and the COST of healing ! PURPOSE over PROBLEMS!
SO WHAT’S YOUR PROBLEM???? HUH???? Is it sex? Weed? Rejection? Death of a loved one? Depression? Suicidal thoughts? No father? No mother? Low self esteem? Abandonment? Pride? Fear? Feelings of no self worth? Doubt? Religion? Molestation? Abuse? Your Past? Rape? Porn Addict? Over-eater? Sickness? Loneliness? Religion? Whatever it is…there is nothing to hard for God! If you have never heard it before…YOU CAN BE DELIVERED from all of these things! Not only that but God will make you whole and use you! You can plug in your name all throughout this posting. If you are still struggling in some of these areas-know that God cares and He sees you. Don’t give up! Keep pressing! Surrender all things to Him by seeking Him first.
So what can we take from this? That there is a measure of faith in us all. A measure of ‘you can keep going’ in all of us. I pray that this will encourage you that nothing can stop your purpose and destiny!!!!
God loves you soooooo much! Know that joy comes in the morning! Don't allow your circumstances to change your level of praise, prayer, study time, and fellowship!
The strength and durability of your purpose outweighs the temporal frailty of your problems.-Shavra
IT’S A LIE!!! IT’S A LIE!!!!! I know it may be a difficult way to begin a blog but hey it’s the truth! What’s the lie?! That whatever you feel your shortcomings are that some how they have caused you to be short of God’s ability to use you! I'm going to list a few leaders with a ‘few’ problems:
CASE #1: Deborah: Perhaps one of her biggest problems would be the people of her day. Her gender wasn’t a factor for her but it was a problem for others. From the spirit filled Bible(NKJV): A female judge whose multiple leadership functions demonstrates the possibilities for any woman who will allow Gods spirit to fill and form her life.
CASE #2:The 3 Hebrew Boys: A HOT MESS!!! LITERALLY ! We all know they were thrown into the furnace….seems like a BIG problem right!? But why? Because they refused to allow the music to influence their worship and allegiance to the Real King(don’t worry I’m not gonna go deeeeep into the secular music conversation this time! Lol…breathe). Know this that their purpose was to have faith and that faith outweighed their problems!
CASE #3:The Woman with the Issue of Blood: THE ISSUE OF BLOOD WAS NOT THE ONLY ISSUE SHE HAD! Y’all know that right?! All of her life savings (if she had much…being that she was probably unmarried and jobless due to her medical state) were going towards her health care. The ‘whisperings’ concerning why she always sick probably were rumbling around the social networks of her day! I’m not saying she didn’t have ANY friends…I’m just saying how many of your friends stayed around for more than a couple of years while you worked out some things? Exxxactly! So 12 years of ‘can you give me a ride to the doctor and I don't have gas money???!’ But among her many problems was purpose and persistence. She pressed through the (crowd)pop culture that wanted to see Jesus! The man whom everybody was talking about. Perhaps she knew the value of clothes, the energy of crawling for her last hope, and the COST of healing ! PURPOSE over PROBLEMS!
SO WHAT’S YOUR PROBLEM???? HUH???? Is it sex? Weed? Rejection? Death of a loved one? Depression? Suicidal thoughts? No father? No mother? Low self esteem? Abandonment? Pride? Fear? Feelings of no self worth? Doubt? Religion? Molestation? Abuse? Your Past? Rape? Porn Addict? Over-eater? Sickness? Loneliness? Religion? Whatever it is…there is nothing to hard for God! If you have never heard it before…YOU CAN BE DELIVERED from all of these things! Not only that but God will make you whole and use you! You can plug in your name all throughout this posting. If you are still struggling in some of these areas-know that God cares and He sees you. Don’t give up! Keep pressing! Surrender all things to Him by seeking Him first.
So what can we take from this? That there is a measure of faith in us all. A measure of ‘you can keep going’ in all of us. I pray that this will encourage you that nothing can stop your purpose and destiny!!!!
God loves you soooooo much! Know that joy comes in the morning! Don't allow your circumstances to change your level of praise, prayer, study time, and fellowship!
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