Me vs Pretty Girls: The Event

I remember I was about 9 or 10 years old and a family member stood me next to another female family member who was a few years older than me. We stood back-to-back and then faced forward. This person compared looks, facial structure, the shape of our bodies, hair...etc. I remember that person pointing out the fact that my breast and butt was non-existent. AGAIN I WAS LIKE 9 YEARS OLD...! O_o The other girl was about 12 or 13 and I'm sure she ate the chicken that was on steroids!!!!!! Yeah I'm sure!

But anyway I hated every minute of it. I was confused. I was hurt. I didn't know what the whole purpose of this 'demonstration' was. I was showed 'the' standard of a female body and I was critiqued on how bad I failed that standard. I was turned against the Pretty Girl and she didn't even know it. I was the looser. I was already kind of tom-boyish but I always wanted to be pretty but I didn't think that was possible. Really, I didn't...I didn't like naturally pretty girls...they had effortless beauty and that's something I would never have. Its hard to explain how that 'event' made me feel but I'm sure some of you can imagine how i felt. Can you imagine the impression it left on my heart??? A child's heart???

So what's the point in writing this? To show my dislike for pretty girls? lol...no that's not it! To put my family on front street? Nope that's not it either! Mainly for those who think that 5 minutes of fun won't effect a person. Cuz its been over 17 years and I still remember that moment. When I think of how powerful that moment could have been I just shake my head. That was the perfect opportunity to fill me with so much confidence! For 15 years the pretty girls was my enemy. The pretty girl was the reminder of how much I failed. The pretty girl was where I never would be. DO YOU STILL THINK IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT YOU SAY?? That sticks and stones jingle is a lie...Your words are powerful and impactful! Please use them wisely....

Shalom!
Shepherdess
Part II: The Cat Fight!!! Will be posted this week! :-) Stay Tuned